Being Real…

So I have had plenty to blog about these days, yet just haven’t really had the interest nor taken the time. But this has been on my mind for a couple of weeks so I thought I’d share…

Have you ever watched a baby fall asleep, or even at that a three year old? Have you noticed they don’t close their eyes and then fall asleep like we do? Why? Why do they have to be in the know at all times? Why do they care so much? Do they feel like they are going to miss out on a precious piece of life? I know without a doubt my kids feel 100 percent secure and loved so it can’t be out of fear, so why is it? I still don’t know, but it has got me thinking. Thinking of my life, and how so many times I hold on to what I care so deeply about and with all my being try to protect it. Why is it so hard for me to let go and trust God in trials that come my way? It is so easy to say you trust him, but until you are tested you never know how much you really do give to him. So needless to say, I am being tested right now. Every time our son has a surgery come up, my mind begins to race with so many emotions! So many why’s, when’s and how’s! This will be his seventh surgery and it truly breaks my heart to see him go through this! I know the situation could be worse and trust me I do count my blessings! But as a parent you just want to wrap your arms around them and never let go! So to add to this, my daughter has had a few moments of a crackling voice the last few weeks. In fact tonight her cry scared me so bad that I ran to her room and just held her for hours. Now in no way am I confessing she has this, but it has allowed fear to set in. So with a heavy heart tonight I opened my Bible and read this:

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. James 1:2-5

I love how scripture can just hit you like a ton of bricks! Consider it pure joy, is a life’s lesson I’m sure, but perseverance is key right now in my life and in my sons! This past year has been tough on our family but so far we have persevered and have grown stronger! So with all that said I would encourage you to close your eyes and let go of whatever you may be holding on to!